Isn't it Ironic?

Along my awaken in I laughed a lot about the cosmic jokes that went on in my life.

One of them was: I always said: “I will never ever be a single mum!” and I used to judge those women and honestly look a little bit down on them. I had always this shuttle but steady superior feeling inside of me. 

Little did I know that behind this mask I was hiding a deep rooted insecurity and sadness - and my resistance to them was because I WAS GOING TO Experience JUST THAT VERY THING I USED TO SAY : me? Never!

Never say Never, right ? 😹

So the universe sent me my little master teacher Diana. Although the docs said that I couldn’t have children. More on that part and how I became fertile again in my Podcast soon! 

And when I faced my biggest fear - which was RESPONSIBILITY (response ability) I started to really heal and open my heart to love and compassion on a whole new level.

It was the toughest and most difficult time of my life.

I went into the darkest corners of my being and fell 1000 times. Only to stand up stronger and with more resilience.

More connected to my true self.

And after every fall and rise my mission became clearer. The blessings started flooding in. 

And I became a whole new person.

The journey from maiden to motherhood was the craziest ride I have lived so far. And then the journey to birth my soul led business and mission. The Initiation I am in right now.

So, all those sleep nights nights, those tears and screamed, the begging for help because I couldn’t hold it together any longer, the feelings of deep loneliness, survival fears - and the list goes on and on. 

Countless hours of research, healing, clearing. Investing. Taking bold actions and Believing. Then knowing. 

Here I am. A woman. A new Me. The puzzle pieces came together for me. And I am at peace.
With my past and more important - my present moment. At peace with myself.

But I had to die over and over again, and probably will continue to do so.

Those situations, when you are moving from one way of being into another, from one life into another, ever form o change in your life are very vulnerable moments and often our most deeply rooted fears of DEATH come up to be seen and transmuted. Because we do die. And the letting go can hurt a bit. We are often so stuck on a certain identity and identification with just one thing that we stick to it like glue. and then life has to find a way to ripp you off that attachment to a false identity and faLSE PERCEPTION OF REALITY.

A birth is a portal. For the mother and the child. The mother has to die to her old life, her old self to be reborn again on another frequency as the child. The birthing pains are oftentimes the resistance of the mother to die. The pain of leaving her old self behind.
But you can prepare the correct conditions for it to be a smoother ride.

If I would have known what I know now, I would have prepared around 1-2 years before becoming a mother. 

I would have asked for help earlier. 

I would have cleansed my body and prepared my soul to hold such a high frequency being. And I would have held myself and loved myself much more through it. I would have told myself: LISTEN ONLY TO YOUR OWN INNER KNOWING!

Today, part of my mission is to share everything I know about
1. Physical preparation for birth: Detox your Body and prepare it with the necessary MINERALS and VITAMINS (plants, nanotech supplements, structured and alive WATER. Sport, Movements and Somatic Release through breath and reprogramming of the FASCIA and Information stored in the DNA. Stop with unhealthy habits by adressing the underlying issue and trauma so that it is not passed on to the child.
2. Clearing and Cleansing of ALL the other bodies (emotional, mental, spiritual) through opening of the VOICE and learning how to use your voice (in forms of intuitive heart expression or Light Language) to HEAL yourself and also to connect, heal and communicate with your BABY.
3. A step by Step process of already creating your own birth portal through Quantum Art (whatever birth you are going through - from a physical birth of a baby, to your own birth from maiden to mother or the birth of a creative project,your mission, etc.) that will help you:
- anchor in the new energy in this reality with your intentions
- call in and bring in the support needed for this transition (material, spiritual, emotional and also financial support)
- Release and Transmute everything that needs to leave for the new to arrive in a way where you are held (clear out transgenerational patterns, karma, false believe systems, negative programming, entities, cords, shattered soul parts, etc.)
- Align with your highest timeline and have meditation tool/physical manifestation of your dream that you will be able to use as guidance throughout the process
- Deeply learn to connect with your heart/soul/innerartist/higher self/god-goddess and receive guidance from it, hence establish a deeper connection to your intuition

and many more things that I am going to share about in the next post.

Gotta eat something before my daughter is with me again ☺️

Like Agold old Alanis said: Like a good advise, that you just didn't take....

Take my advise just for today: And sit out with a tree and dont do nothing. for 10 minutes. It is so important right now to PAUSE.

I love you in Me.

Kyaron